Distracted with other Health Issues

I haven't been too consistent with the breakfast or the exercise routines this week; my brain has been too focused on other issues right now [which is frequently the case when I'm stressed].  I don't know how this coming week will be, either, since I need to deal with these other issues at hand.

This past Friday I started with an outpatient treatment program for some of my health issues. I'm not sure yet how long I'll be going [maybe a week or two; longer if needed]. I do know that the doctor is going to have me get some labwork done, an EKG, and a CAT scan. It's been awhile since I've had any blood work done and even longer since I've had an EKG.  I've never had a CAT scan done so it should be  interesting to see how that goes and what the results are.

Thursday's 'intake' process and the long day on Friday really drained me; I bet this upcoming week will, too. I'm usually pretty wiped out after my doctor appointments as well as with the treatments I get in-between the dr appts so I'm assuming being at the hospital most of the day [morning through late afternoon, sometimes later] will be even be moreso of a drain. 

Some day, perhaps there will be a time when this healthier eating will be so ingrained in me that I won't even have to think about if I'm eating healthier or not [though it hasn't happened over the long haul yet].  But right now I need to focus more on getting through the next week and I'm hoping that in the long run, it'll help me with other issues as well.

[Hopefully this post makes SOME sense; it's after 3 am right now and I really need to try again to get some sleep; the alarm clock will be going off in about 3 hours...]

My History of Stress and Weight Gain

I wasn't always overweight. When I was a kid, I'd say that I was pretty average. I enjoyed doing stuff outside-running around playing [there were lots of kids in my neighborhood], bike-riding, walking, etc... 

The weight starting creeping up during 5th-7th grades. In 5th grade, we switched schools which initially I didn't want to do--and during much of those 3 years, I was picked on/bulleyed by several other girls. So by the time I moved on to the HS [8th-12th grades in one building], I had gained about 30 pounds.

I was sick a lot with stomach issues during 8th grade and ended up losing all the weight I had gained--so at least there was something good about missing a lot of school!  After moving to Ann Arbor in 9th grade, I was on the jv basketball team for about 1 1/2 seasons, on the track team for 3 [though I was as slow as a turtle; there was only one race where I didn't come in last], and I took PE just about every semester.  This was the best shape I'd ever been in my entire life.

Going on to college, there was the 'freshman 15' -weight gain from the dorm food. Then it really starting piling on after sophomore year when I got  married--the whole dating scene and marriage to the X was definitely a bad and stressful time for me.  I continued to gain with having 3 orthopedic surgeries over a few years, thus, not working out.

More stress in the late 90s when I was having some major health issues and in 2000, I was diagnosed with a couple chronic health conditions; many of the meds I'm now taking has weight gain as a side effect. A few years after my diagnoses, I ended up on disability; thus, cutting down even more of the exercise I was getting at work. The depression that followed certainly didn't help; the weight gain continued. 

In the spring of '06, I moved back to MI after spending 15 years in NC so I could help care for my mother two-three days a week.  It was hard for me to leave NC, though I did want to help with my Mom. But seeing her health deteriorate was also stressful.  By the fall that year, I was the heaviest I've ever been.  

Over the years starting in the later elementary grades,  I've been on just about every diet plan and in the later years, I attempted several exercise programs. If/when I lost weight, it all came back on, plus some. Pretty common, I know.

So I'm back on the bandwagon, trying once again to feel better physically as well as mentally.  

Back in June, I joined the local rec department and have been going with a couple friends;  I'll post more about that sometime in the next couple days. I also plan on posting progress with the workouts, food plan, and weight loss.  Even if it doesn't help anyone else, I do need to do this for myself to look back and see what's working, what isn't, changes I've tried, how I'm feeling about it all, etc.

Soon, probably after my exercise post, these postings *should* be shorter in length; I know I won't keep posting these longer articles on days I'm dragging or extra busy. And no one else will want to follow along if every post was this long!

Thanks for being so patient with me [and I need to learn to be patient with myself, that's for sure].

Breakfast Update

How I'm doing so far:

     I'm not consistent with this breakfast thing yet; I'm not much of breakfast eater, especially not within an hour of getting up. And when I do have breakfast, it often didn't include protein [which, according to my reading, protein is something that I don't eat enough of throughout the whole day].

     There have been a few days when I've skipped eating in the morning, for no reason except for the fact that I couldn't get myself moving that particular morning. I have a chronic sleep problem even with using my bi-pap machine for sleep apnea and with taking a prescription medication for another condition that I have-which supposedly has a side affect of drowsiness. But many nights, I still wake up and can't get back to sleep-so instead of allowing myself to get too hyped up about it, I get up for an hour or more before going back to bed. [Like right now, I've been up since about 2:30 AM.]  Thus, there are lots of mornings where I'm really dragging.  Though sometimes I do have a snack while I'm up [that I keep here in my computer room] and now I try to have something that includes some protein. [example: trail mix that I make myself, peanut butter or cheese and crackers, etc]

     I can see why the book says that most people often take a month or longer to make each step a habit. And she suggests working on each step til its a habit before moving on to the next one--so I know I'm not alone in having this take some time. Me, I'm usually an all-or-nothing sort of person: if I can't do it right from the start, I won't keep trying, saying to myself 'why even bother?'.  So, learning to be patient with myself is something I'm NOT good at [in all areas, not just with eating habits].

     Ok, I need to keep plugging away with this much before adding the last part of this breakfast thing [include a complex carb in the morning].  I hope posting here will help keep me accountable!

Starting the first step

I started with parts of step one; so far, I'm working on:

-eating breakfast every morning [something I usually don't do]

-have it within an hour of getting up

-include a protein [I usually didn't do]

I officially started this on 8/1/08, though I did have breakfast several mornings  before 8/1. Most days, I do have breakfast but not always within an hour of getting up. I'm wondering it this hour starts when I wake up in the morning, or when I get up? I almost always stay in bed for awhile until I'm more awake as I very frequently have problems with sleeping during the night.  Then I need to take my shower if I take one that day and get dressed before going downstairs. Maybe I should TRY and switch to showering at night so it won't take me so long to go downstairs and find something.  Since I've started eating in the morning, for the most part, I've been having some protein.

One problem I'm having right now is that it seems that I'm more hungry throughout the day than before [though before, I was better at suppressing the hunger; maybe I'm just more aware of it now].  I *have* read about the idea of 'false' hunger that's talked about a bit later in the book--so I'm going to have to figure out what's real and what's not as in MY mind right now is that it's all hunger. A couple years ago in reading about fluid intake, sometimes we think we're hungry when in fact, we're a bit dehydrated and thus, drinking water will take care of that...

Have I had breakfast yet today? Well, kind of. I haven't been downstairs yet but HAVE been eating some of my home made trail mix that includes nuts, yogurt covered raisins, sunflower seeds, broken up pretzels, and a few M&Ms thrown in [I haven't gotten to the sugar 'detox' yet, that comes quite a bit later in the program.

Starting the book and getting into the first step

In this book I'm reading ['Potatoes Not Prozac' 2008 edition by Kathleen DesMaisons, PhD], I read the first 5 chapters that went into interesting details about addiction, especially sugar addiction & sensitivity, the various ways it affects us, the biochemsitry that is affected, and how to deal with these things effectively.

I needed a few days to ponder over these thoughts and ideas before starting the actual 'program'. I kind of started on step 1 during these few days and then set Aug. 1st as the day where I was going to start for 'real'--as in trying to do it every day. And that's the key for me right now, to TRY; it's going to take awhile before I'm doing the stuff consistently.  I've done at least some of the first step every morning but not always doing it in a timely manner.  I guess why Kathleen says that each step will probably take us a month or more to make a habit...

[Sorry if I'm repeating some of what I posted this morning!]  I'll go into more of what I'm doing with this first step tomorrow sometime.

Intro About My Starting Point

Recently, I've been doing a bit of research on Sugar Sensitivity and Addiction.  After going through many articles and books, I came across a book and author that really made an impression on me, it seemed like she was writing all about me.  The book at the library is titled "The Sugar Addicts Total Recovery Program" by Kathleen DesMaisons, PhD.

Books like these I have the need to highlight/mark/make comments in the margins, etc. But this book was out of stock at the bookstore--but I found a very similar one she wrote, her just this year updated version of the 'Potatoes, not Prozac' that she wrote in '98.  So that one came home with me.  

Kathleen goings into detail about how we determine if we ARE sugar sensitive, what the problems one may have with this sensitivy, and then the WHYs of these problems, and then, of course, how to go about making changes that will help us change our eating habits for the better.

This isn't a diet program as a means of loosing weight, rather, a program to help us with work through the symptoms and treat the cause--thus, feeling immensely better and decreasing the sugar urges we have had.

It's a 7 step process and to make it work for us, we're to work the steps, in order, and work EACH step until we're able to do it on a regular basis--which can take a month or more for many people.

Anyway, that's the gist of it that I'm going to be working on. I plan to use this blog for me to focus on the process of this and on starting to exercise again.

If there are any readers here, feel free to join me in this, and/or to make comments, ask questions, etc.  I definitely believe that we all can help each other.  Also feel free to talk about other healthy programs or articles that you've come across.

In the meantime, here's a link to Kathleen's website that has more information:

www.radiantrecovery.com